Perhaps I shouldn’t be writing this review when I am having a cold and in a sour mood. Somehow it feels that I fell particularly short of my goals this month. I still didn’t get anywhere with more exercise or more reading, and I feel constantly rushed and pulled in too many directions. Work has been stressful this month – we are all waiting for certain executive decisions that will probably affect my own direction quite a bit. No, I don’t mean that I am on the way to an unemployment office, but I might be doing somewhat different things. It makes it harder for me to focus on business at hand.
It doesn’t help that I only see Anna dead tired now, especially on her school days. I work from home on Mondays, and it’s so fun to see her bright and energetic before she goes to school. She used to be that way in the afternoons after her nap, but now she plays and reads through her nap time. Doing anything with her is a bit of a struggle, and I feel that I fall back in the trap of following my agenda instead of following her lead. I think sometimes – how much of what we do is good for her and how much of it is just my desire to do something that is “blog-worthy”.
On the positive note, we ate many healthy, cooked-from-scratch meals this month, and we spent more time outside when the weather allowed it. We had some fun outings on the weekends, and we spent some time with friends. Anna saw her best friends every week, sometimes twice a week, but it was all in the mornings. She was too tired for any play dates in the afternoon.
In March I want to chill. If things don’t get done, they don’t get done. I know from experience that our best activities are quickies, so I shouldn’t plan and prepare for something big and then be disappointed when it doesn’t happen. Now, when Anna got more of a hang of how our geography track works, I am going to let her choose whether she wants to spend more time on the country that we already covered or select a new country for a study. I also want to reduce somewhat the amount of books that we bring from the library for joint reading. We are always hovering at 25+ library books at home plus a dozen more for Anna’s independent reading. It upsets us both when we have to return a book to the library after only having read it a couple times.
I am going to drop book reading from my goals. I just never seem to find time for it. Theoretically I could read before bed, but I find myself too tired. I’d rather spend an hour talking to my husband and watching one of our DVD shows together. But I want to try to do better in exercise and finally report some progress in March.