Sunday, February 28, 2010

Feb15_NB_Natalie

Perhaps I shouldn’t be writing this review when I am having a cold and in a sour mood. Somehow it feels that I fell particularly short of my goals this month. I still didn’t get anywhere with more exercise or more reading, and I feel constantly rushed and pulled in too many directions. Work has been stressful this month – we are all waiting for certain executive decisions that will probably affect my own direction quite a bit. No, I don’t mean that I am on the way to an unemployment office, but I might be doing somewhat different things. It makes it harder for me to focus on business at hand.

It doesn’t help that I only see Anna dead tired now, especially on her school days. I work from home on Mondays, and it’s so fun to see her bright and energetic before she goes to school. She used to be that way in the afternoons after her nap, but now she plays and reads through her nap time. Doing anything with her is a bit of a struggle, and I feel that I fall back in the trap of following my agenda instead of following her lead. I think sometimes – how much of what we do is good for her and how much of it is just my desire to do something that is “blog-worthy”.

On the positive note, we ate many healthy, cooked-from-scratch meals this month, and we spent more time outside when the weather allowed it. We had some fun outings on the weekends, and we spent some time with friends. Anna saw her best friends every week, sometimes twice a week, but it was all in the mornings. She was too tired for any play dates in the afternoon.

In March I want to chill. If things don’t get done, they don’t get done. I know from experience that our best activities are quickies, so I shouldn’t plan and prepare for something big and then be disappointed when it doesn’t happen. Now, when Anna got more of a hang of how our geography track works, I am going to let her choose whether she wants to spend more time on the country that we already covered or select a new country for a study. I also want to reduce somewhat the amount of books that we bring from the library for joint reading. We are always hovering at 25+ library books at home plus a dozen more for Anna’s independent reading. It upsets us both when we have to return a book to the library after only having read it a couple times.

I am going to drop book reading from my goals. I just never seem to find time for it. Theoretically I could read before bed, but I find myself too tired. I’d rather spend an hour talking to my husband and watching one of our DVD shows together. But I want to try to do better in exercise and finally report some progress in March.

11 comments:

An Almost Unschooling Mom said...

You must have amazing goals, if you don't feel like you're accomplishing them all - because from what you post, and factoring in work, and Anna's school, it looks like a lot.

As for reading - do you have a commute time? There are a lot of very good unabridged audio novels.

Ticia said...

Oh, I'll second audio books, and our library has quite a few, so you might get some "reading" done that way.
Congratulations on more cooking from scratch and getting outside. You've done a great job, especially since you've been sick off and on all this month.

Christy said...

I am always surprised by how much you accomplish as a working mom. Don't beat yourself up! You are doing a great job.

Debbie said...

I am with the rest of them. You get a lot done with your schedule. You also have your husband there helping out so much.

I think this is something we all go through and can relate to even if we are SAHM, that time for "ME" and are we doing all we can for our little ones. You are doing great!

Cindy said...

I love your comment, "If things don’t get done, they don’t get done."
That's how I am most of the time. I got tired of stressing myself out and never feeling like I got much accomplished. Now everyday is independent of the next. If we feel like doing school we do it. If we feel like baking we do it. If my dishes don't get washed b/c we are playing in the snow, so be it. Just know Anna loves you know matter what and you are amazing.

Autumn said...

I think it's a great idea to reevaluate our goals for the year every month to what is worth putting more effort into, and what is worth dropping.

What if you took a week off of 'school' activities at home and just had a lot of free play and Anna-led activities? It might give everyone a break for awhile and make her more eager to do school activities the next week. Whatever you do, you're doing a great job with Anna and you're an awesome mom. :)

Annette W. said...

I love my library's audio books. You can also rent them! Purchasing is expensive.

Cute picture, by the way.

Meghan also hasn't been napping much lately. She went from 3-4 hour naps to none/1 hour naps. Not so good of moods here either!

Valerie @ Frugal Family Fun Blog said...

I'm impressed with everything you've accomplished this month. Don't be so hard on yourself! Relaxing for March sounds like a great idea and a good way to recharge your batteries. Anna is so lucky to have you for a mom!! You're doing great!

Mom and Kiddo said...

I think it's hard to get anything done when one has small children, even when they are in school. I plan on not setting any goals for myself until New Kid is 5! LOL.

Eva said...

oh I really like how you had a monthly recap, I should totally do that! Exercise has not been so good with me either, infact pretty much non-existant.. I think I should go back and look at my list again, perhaps write a similar report. I totally know what you mean about chilling out and doing quick activities :) I tend to be leaning to that too instead of throughly planned ones that there is not enough time for.

MaryAnne said...

I hope you feel better soon! February was a rough month in our home, too, and I'm looking forward to hopefully warmer weather and a healthier March!