My friend Susana at My Family My Forever has opened the ongoing conversation last week about nutrition, exercise and finding time for yourself. I admit that this is a painful topic for me. I am working full time. My work day starts at 7 am and ends at 4 pm. I usually get up between 5 am and 5:30 am, when my family is still asleep. Technically, I could exercise in those only 30 minutes a day that I have to myself, but it’s the time that I use for blogging, and I am not willing to give it up. I come home shortly before 5 pm and then it’s go-go-go with Anna. I don’t blame her for the fact that she wants to be with me from the moment I walk into the door until the moment she goes to bed. She loves her papa, but she is still very much mama girl, and I enjoy being with her. However… it means that I literally don’t have a minute to myself until after 8 pm when she goes to bed. At best I can cook or pick up the house, but not exercise or, God forbid, get online. When Anna finally goes to bed, I check my email and catch up with work for at least another 30 minutes. By the time I am done, I don’t feel like doing anything that feels remotely like work. Usually we watch an episode of our show du jour on DVD (currently we are in the fifth season of CSI Las Vegas), talk a little, and by that time it’s 10:30 – time for bed.
Just writing it down helped me understand that I need to get some time for myself on the weekends. We sort of fell into the routine when we either do some family activities or I spend some more 1:1 time with Anna. I need more time to myself to recharge. I want to say that I will use this time for exercise, but I know that it’s not going to happen until Christmas. We always do some homemade presents for Christmas – digital scrapbooks for our parents, and we are really behind. I have to use all the extra time to catch up with my part. However, I do want to start exercising in 2010. I am not overweight, but I am out of shape. I want to tone up and improve my flexibility. I am shooting for 2 times a week, gradually increasing to three times, and I hope to start playing tennis again. The challenge with tennis that either I have to find another partner, or we need a babysitter. This is another early 2010 resolution – having a date night out with my husband more than two times a year when my parents come over.
All that said, I think Susana provided a great perspective on things saying that all this craziness and business will not last forever. As my daughter grows up, she will inevitably move into her own world. I want to enjoy this time together and not to resent it. I admit that sometimes, on the days when I am tired and she is cranky, it’s not easy. But I am trying to remind myself that this moment shall pass and that early childhood will pass in a blink of an eye. I will still get to do all those things that I put on hold, I just have to hang in there and enjoy the present as much as I can.